Azmi has told us that he will be evaluating our practice and will be giving us a “report card” next week during the Christmas Gathering. He has been observing us in class for the past week and will be evaluating us on our strengths and weaknesses. I am quite apprehensive to know how Azmi has evaluated my practice but I know it would be good to have the evaluation as it would give me the guidance to progress in my practice.
Meanwhile, I have been doing some thinking about my own practice and made some evaluation of my own. I think sometimes, I pushed too hard in my practice when I let my ego take over in trying to show the teacher that I am able to do the poses. Instead of listening and checking in with my body on how I am feeling in the pose, I try to go beyond my limit and it becomes how I look in the pose. I also feel that I need to be more present in the pose as I sometimes get distracted by how another practitioner is doing the pose which causes me to compel myself into a pose instead of observing and focusing on how my body is feeling in the pose. I think this is one of the reasons why I like the Mysore class as I feel that I am able to be more present as I am more focused using my breaths to hold in the poses.
"If we are not fully ourselves, truly in the present moment, we miss everything." - Thich Nhat Hanh